I turned into this skanky bitch ; I hate it. I hate myself for turning into this but shit had happened to me.
I fucked up. BIG. TIME. I wish I could take it all back, but I can't.
I lost people on the way by being that bitch, making big mistakes and taking the wrong decisions. I, however, assume my acts and now learn from them.
I want to start over. I may not be able to go back in time and rewrite the whole story but I can change the future of it... Right ? I need you guys. So damn much. I need you to get me out of this deep dark hole that I'm trying to get out of for months. I need you to tell me things are gonna be okay. I need you to tell me that the future is brighter. I just need you. Simple as that. I'm a mess. I'm a fucking mess. I need you more and more everyday.
For the past months, I've been looking for answers. I need answers, words telling me the truth to move the fuck on. And the only one who can help me out is... Well, you know all who it is. I already forgave. Yes, I think I did. Well, it was easy. I love-d the person. Secondary effects of love, I suppose. You can't never hate the person you were in love with, even if you try really hard convincing yourself that's not true. I still need to forget. Harder.
Someone hurt me. Pretty bad. Instead of stoping the pain I just did shit and the pain kept growing. I lost more than you think in this. I lost my heart, I lost my confidence, I lost my ability of ever loving again (for now), I lost people's trust and I lost friends. How pathetic is this ?
This text doesn't make any sense but oh well. Whatever. I just needed to let it all out. I might edit it.
In a few words:
Please, don't let me down. Please, don't. Or I don't know what I'll do.
I fucked up. BIG. TIME. I wish I could take it all back, but I can't.
I lost people on the way by being that bitch, making big mistakes and taking the wrong decisions. I, however, assume my acts and now learn from them.
I want to start over. I may not be able to go back in time and rewrite the whole story but I can change the future of it... Right ? I need you guys. So damn much. I need you to get me out of this deep dark hole that I'm trying to get out of for months. I need you to tell me things are gonna be okay. I need you to tell me that the future is brighter. I just need you. Simple as that. I'm a mess. I'm a fucking mess. I need you more and more everyday.
For the past months, I've been looking for answers. I need answers, words telling me the truth to move the fuck on. And the only one who can help me out is... Well, you know all who it is. I already forgave. Yes, I think I did. Well, it was easy. I love-d the person. Secondary effects of love, I suppose. You can't never hate the person you were in love with, even if you try really hard convincing yourself that's not true. I still need to forget. Harder.
Someone hurt me. Pretty bad. Instead of stoping the pain I just did shit and the pain kept growing. I lost more than you think in this. I lost my heart, I lost my confidence, I lost my ability of ever loving again (for now), I lost people's trust and I lost friends. How pathetic is this ?
This text doesn't make any sense but oh well. Whatever. I just needed to let it all out. I might edit it.
In a few words:
Please, don't let me down. Please, don't. Or I don't know what I'll do.
I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE ! :D
